Oh no....

I haven't fully recovered. But am in the process of recovering from a fever, sore throat,and a bad cough.Yet during the course of my illness, I had time to go for a holiday of which my illness did not get any better. Thats what I get for being stubborn. And just when I thought things would be better, my dear mother falls ill. She RARELY falls sick. And when she does, it is scary. For me. Scary because there is a possibility of her falling seriously ill. When both my brother and sister go off for school and my father goes off for work, I'm left with my mother at home. But I am supposed to go for a camp. How am I to go leaving my dear ill mother to fend off her illness by herself? In times like this, I get so confused sometimes. The solution seems simple. But to believe in the solution, thats plain hard for me. I should stay at home and take care of my mother right? Oh should I go for the camp leaving my sick mother at home? Oh gosh, the solution feels like its in my face! Yet, acknowledging the solution and that it is what I'm supposed to do is hard. Its all thanks to my over-thinking mind. All I know is if anything happens to my mother and I'm not around to help her, I can never forgive myself. 

~Salam~