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"If you’re trying to please everyone, then you’re not going to make anything that is honestly yours, I don’t think, in the long run."

– Viggo Mortensen

I just want to hug and cuddle this furry little creature

I'm just looking

Oh shit!

The feeling you get when your mum catches you awake at such ungodly hour on the laptop.
I can't help it. It's the night that lets me be at peace. Especially when there's youtube and eargasmic music. Yeah I said it. I'm not exactly a prude. So here is the eargasmic music. Enjoy.

20

Today marks 20 days till Ramadhan enters our lives. Its a rather nice number, 20. Plus its the number of years I've lived on this Earth. Well, at least in 10 days time I'll turn 20. To be honest, I'm insufficiently concerned about turning 20. Its just a number. Who knows, maybe with a twist of fate, I don't get to reach that day when I'll turn 20. Things happen.

There was another thing I want to share. Oh yes. So I have been fasting for some days. When I started, it was excruciating because I felt hot inside. It really didn't help when the weather itself was hot and humid. However, as the days went by, it became easier. The hunger pangs lessened. Even when I break fast, I can't eat a lot. Two scoops of rice and soup and I'm already full. My stomach feels small or it has shrunk. Ah well, maybe it is for the best. Tomorrow will be yet another day of fasting. I'm so ready for it. Ramadhan I know you're coming but is there any chance for you to hurry up? Pretty please? ;) 

~Salam~

Hands

Big hands. Small hands. Medium Hands. Huge hands.

What's the size of your hand? How big is it when you ball it into fist? 

It is said that the size of the heart closely resembles the size of our fists. 

Looking at my hands, they look small. As if they stopped growing when I was 14. 

My sister has a much larger pair of hands. And she's only 14. So I'm guessing since my hands ergo my fists are quite small, my heart is too. Its weird looking at my hands as I type this here. To think that I've been and will be using these small little hands with their little phalanges and opposable thumbs till the day I close my eyes for good. Hahaha, now I see my hands and fingers in a different light. 

Fact Snippet: 
"The opposable thumb may have been, regarding humanity, the single most important evolutionary development"

~Salam~

Blearghh

Just when I feel energized in spirit to do something, I fall ill. I was fine one moment and the next, the throat feels constricted, nose runs like a tap, elevated temperature. Sigh, I really want to do the things I set my mind to. But getting sick pulls me way back. And tomorrow I have night tuition.  Since I've drank cough syrup, I feel light. I honestly feel like I'm floating. In my head especially. And my feet feel very light when I move about. 

Time to take my cough syrup again. It feels kinda good. Feeling all light. Sometimes I take it even when I just can't sleep. The drowsiness sets in, lulling me to sleep. 

~Salam~

Back Again

Yay! I'm back once again. Still having my school holidays now. Recently, my family and I went to Malaysia for a well-deserved break. We went to two states. Melaka and Negri Sembilan. I don't show it but I secretly LOVE going back to Malaysia to visit relatives. Why? Because my relatives are there. My mum was born in Melaka. My grandparents were from Malaysia. Well, an exception would be my paternal grandmum whose ancestry hails from Indonesia. I really like the idea of coming from various places and converging on one area I call home now. That's because there's a possibility of calling other places you love your second or third home. Or maybe a change of home ;) 
This time unlike all other times we went back to Malaysia, was thoroughly enjoyable. It was, for once, relaxing. You could call it some sort of backpacking trip. Mostly because we did most of the travelling by train. I'm going to miss KTM and Tanjong Pagar Station. Many a times we would travel by train back to Malaysia. I will always look forward to every trip. The same economy class tickets, seats, but different hours of travelling time. I look forward to travelling in the morning or afternoon. That's because we get to see the beautiful scenery that Malaysia has been blessed with. There's probably so much more sceneries in other parts of Malaysia but the little I see travelling by train is already amazing. Alhamdullilah. 


There's much to be said about my homecoming to Malaysia. Hehehe, my parents have plans about that. My father specifically which is strange because he wasn't born in Malaysia. Then again, the country has its charms that overlooks some of its flaws. Until I have fully explored peninsula Malaysia will I then venture into Sabah and Sarawak. Only if I can convince my parents that I am an adult and fully capable of taking care of myself. 
Which I worry because according to them, I'm never an adult till I get married. Which I must say, is not bloody fair. Turning 20 means nothing to them. My personal pledge prevents me from getting married at their definition of 'early' age. Plus, I'm not the kind who eagerly and yearns to get married. No. Let me do my own things. And when I'm ready, I'll tell my parents. Not sure they've understood that about me. 
Oh dear, digression infects me every single time. 

Continue I will tomorrow...Insya-Allah with positive things worth reading this time :)

~Salam~