Pray

I find this to be such a cute sight.


~Salam~

The Old Man Who Cried Wolf

False alarm. Again! Since two to three years ago, he keeps doing that. Making people scared. I was scared. I can't say specifically who for fear that beings related by blood to me might stumble upon this post. All I can say is its an old man who cried wolf. Its emotionally exhausting being on your guard. That is protecting your feelings from ruins. Protecting your heart from shattering into a million pieces. Sigh...Cubaan Ramadhan. I don't know why I call it cubaan ramadhan. Like as if these challenges and problems are characteristic of the month of Ramadhan. It should be the same kind of challenges I encounter in other months right? Just that this month, they seem to appear uninvited pretty much very often. But its okay. Whatever challenges I'll take it and face it with the strength Allah has given me, with the iman Allah has bestowed upon me. Insya-Allah.
 Just like a quote I remembered reading from a friend's blog: "If Allah brings you to it, Allah will bring you through it." Insya-Allah.

~Salam~

Doa

Ya Allah, ini merupakan bulan Ramadhan yang sungguh indah dan mulia. Bulan yang Engkau anugerahkan nikmat dan ganjaran tinggi kepada hamba-hambamu yang beriman dan beribadah. Dan Engkau yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Pengampun. Sebelum Engkau mengambilnya, aku berdoa agar Yang Maha Mulia mengampun segala-gala dosanya. Kalau boleh, kupinta dengan seikhlas dan sejujurnya agar jangan mengambilnya dalam bulan yang mulia ini. Panjangkan umurnya Ya Allah. Sesungguhnya, aku tidak larat menghadapi kepiluan hati sekali lagi. Pernahku sedih tidak terhingga dan hingga kini tidak dapat kulupakan. Aku benar-benar berdoa agar Engkau Yang Maha Mulia, Yang Penyayang Lagi Pemurah, panjangkanlah umurnya. Sesungguhnya, benarkanlah kami sekeluarga menyambut Hari Raya terakhirnya bersama-sama Ya Allah. Kalau tidak, Aidilfitri tahun ini akan terasa sangat pilu Ya Allah....

 Mungkin aku egois sebab tidak mahu hati terluka lagi. Mungkin dalam kalbuku, aku benar-benar menyayanginya. Mungkin Engkau lebih menyayanginya. Mungkin kerana itulah Engkau ingin mengambilnya. Namun, aku tetap berdoa, bermohon kepada Yang Maha Esa, jikalau benar Engkau ingin mengambilnya, aku berharap agar Engkau mengampun dosanya, meringankan bebannya dan mengambil nyawanya dengan baik sehingga tidak terasa kesakitan. Dan Insya-Allah, menyediakan tempat untuknya di Syurgamu Ya Allah.

Insya-Allah

~Salam~

After-Fast Rendezvous

Assalamualaikum and Ramadhan Kareem to all :)

I am happy that Ramadhan is here. The fasting begins.The cleansing of minds and bodies. A time to meet old friends and new ones. A time to pray and believe in the good of the future to come. And the celebrations patiently awaiting us. Insya-Allah.

It is always nice to meet-up with goold old friends. And I did just that. After-fast rendezvous I call it. A feel-good gathering. Damia, Diyanah, Hanisah and myself. In the company of good friends, good food and interesting talk. Cakap-cakap we did. Makan-makan pun juga. Sigh...I've missed them all. To the other two who couldn't make it, I promise to make sure both of you come for the next gathering. I doakan lagi Shariffah cepat sembuh and Amalina's dear grandma cepat baik. Insya-Allah.


And so, we talked and talked. Then walked and walked around at the Bazaar. It was late and the foodstalls were running out of food. But still a sight to appreciate. Baju raya also around. Carpet auctioning still going on. Sigh...Like a mini Geylang up north. Which makes me want to go Geylang and soak in the atmosphere. The Hari Raya atmosphere. Insya-Allah can go. And yes, after much walking around, we headed back inside the mall and my dear teacher got herself pyjamas. Hahaha, I shall not say who exactly. Bocor rahsia nanti! But she's ever so fashionable for a muslimah.


End of the month, she promised to belanja all of us at a place of her picking. My extrasensory perception says that I'll be eating yummy food in good company in at least two weeks time.Hahahah. Then we parted, saying our goodbyes and taking photos at an almost pub-looking place. Actually it was just under a canopy structure.

Love you all lah ;)

~Salam~

Say

I am naturally a person of few words. Only if you knew the words bouncing off the walls of my mind. Then, you'll think again.
Much of the words are spent on thinking. Yes, I think. Too much sometimes. But it is just who I am.
I ask questions more than I give answers. Why? Because I'm curious. Yes yes, curiousity killed the cat. But not knowing will probably and most likely kill me.

And I have outlandish ideas and unconventional dreams yet there is always that ounce of hope that someday, just someday, it'll come true. These ideas, dreams and aspirations are personal. No one knows except for myself and Allah.
Maybe the day people will come to know, would be the day it comes true. Insya-Allah.

Sometimes I wonder...If anyone knows anything about me... As in the real me. I don't know for sure who is the real me. But it doesn't matter really. Because the only one who I need to prove who I am will know.

~Salam~

Things

Bulan Ramadhan sudah pun tiba.

Bersama dengan cubaannya.

Ya Allah, meskiku rapuh dalam langkah, aku tetap hidup untukMu Yang Esa.
Insya-Allah, hambamu diberi kekuatan dan keimanan hanya daripadaMu.

~Salam~

Akanku bertaqwa

Rapuh

I cannot stop listening to this song. 

 The lyrics contain a certain elusive feel. 

A je ne sais quoi meaning too. 

When I listen to it carefully, it gets emotional. 

Well, I get emotional.

But I love this song still.

~Salam~

Its Coming :)

Merry-Go-Round

LOVE this Merry-Go-Round:)

If it kept on spinning and spinning infinitely, 

I promise I won't feel dizzy 

and I promise I won't feel nauseous.

Instead I'll fall asleep 

because of the wind 

singing its lullaby,

my legs swinging in its rhythm,

my hijab almost fluttering.

And my face exposed to the breezy cool air.

Sigh...What a feeling. 

Wished it could last longer.

And it will ;)

~Salam~